Lunches, Jim’izms and a Silly Little Toy

Lunches, Jim’izms and a silly little toy, the light and fluffy, make you smile blog, about the life and times of the Carr family for week 7


Back on schedule

This blog started as a Friday post to wrap up and talk about things going on in the life and times of my family any given week. A Friday post, makes work week sense to wrap up things, but quite often, either I am too busy or too lacking in content to hit my self-imposed deadline. So, over the last year there have been many late posts and even some missing ones. Now, I am not making any promises, but it looks like after a bit of a week off, I am back on track. Well almost, on track because Sunday is so close to Friday.

Lunches
As I pointed out a whole bunch of months ago I am the hub in the Carr household, with respect to mornings anyway. I rally the troops by shaking the beds, pulling covers off and doing whatever else I have to, in order to get three ladies that all hate the mornings, out of the door to start their day. Over the summer, my approach was a little different, by sheer fact of the time. It is far easier to wake the little ones when the little hand is pointing to a double digit. But here we are in the third week of school, and things in the mornings around the Carr house are starting to fall into place. I have even impressed myself a little by making lunches that involve a little more than unwrap and pack.

Chicken strips a couple of times, fish sticks, all involving the oven. For now I am not aiming for the father of the year award, but I am happy that the girlies have noticed, by saying, “thank you daddy for our lunches”. And if there is such an award, I would be happy just to be nominated!

Silly bandz
When we visited Key West in the summer, at a shopping stop in the Jimmy Buffett owned, “Original Margaretville” gift store, there was no shortage of stuff to catch our eyes as we walking the tinny isles. We got 8 plastic cups for use poolside, a set of foam beer coolers as a souvenir gift for a friend, and almost made it out of the store for under $20 dollars, but found something else at the check out. “These are going to be very popular with the kids”, the sales lady said, pointing at a package of “Margaretville themed Silly Bandz”.

They are tiny rubber wristbands in different shapes and colours, apparently great for collecting or trading, and best of all driving your parents nuts. When we got back, we noticed they already started showing up on the wrists of little ones in our neighbourhood. So we added to the original sets, with a trip to the dollar store and aside from the large handful that ended up being sucked up in the skimmer in the pool, the girl’s collection was doing well.

Doing well, until Jordyn brought all 24 of hers to school and in her words “traded” them with other kids. I say her words, because she must have a misunderstanding of what the word “trade” means, because she came home with 4, and she proudly told Nathalie about it, and even asked to go buy more. Nathalie pointed out that if she wants to give away her bandz, that is one thing, but buying more is not on the table, and more importantly, trading is 1 for 1 or giving something, but getting something equal value in return. The big problem is that Jordyn is a giver, and as such is easily taken advantage of by so called friends and that makes us a little mad. We can only hope that she catches on at some point and learns that giving is cool, if it makes you feel good, BUT sharing is always makes you feel better.

Bedtime
For the last 10 years or so, my favourite time of the day, is bedtime, but it is not what you may think. Yes, I like my sleep, but the time of the day, I feel the most in control, is when the kids have gone to bed. Maybe it is that when they are sleeping, dreaming their dreams and doing what little girls do when they sleep, I feel like they are finally safe for the day. In my house, under their blankets cuddling their respective stuffed animals, protected from schoolyard bullies and classmates posing as friends to gain or anything else evil. After prayers and kisses good night, both Nathalie and I, always walk a little taller and feel a little better because for at least a couple of hours, know one can harm our little girls.

In closing
My little twin sister made me proud and laugh this week, when she told me that, “I inspired her!” You see on her trip here two weeks ago, she had the chance to come to my school, and sit in on one of my first semester classes. The lesson of the day was their first about mixing music, and I introduced my world famous (in my head) Jim-Izms – “Start the Pot Hot”. In simple terms, it is used to describe the best way to transition from one song to another. The “pot” reefers to the volume control on the second song, and by “starting it Hot” I mean starting at full volume. It comes from listing to too many people who mix music, by fading one song out and fading the second song in, and although it does cross over, the overall volume will “dip”. My technique addresses this horrible, unforgivable absence of sound.

In class I talked about it, then demoed it, and then made each and every student, show me that they understood the process, by doing it themselves. It rubbed off on Janey, and although, I did not make her do it in class, after returning home and being needed to DJ a wedding last Saturday night, she got a lot of chances to “start the pot hot” for herself. When we talked this week, she laughed about her newfound technique, and told me she was very happy to have learned it from her big brother in his production 111 class.

Thanks for reading and have a great and safe week.
Jim

My Mom the Fighter, a Prayer, the Call and Powerful Word

My Mom the Fighter, a Prayer, the Call and powerful word, the week 6 blog I have not wanted to write.


Christmas 2009, Mom and Me
Fighter
This is the blog I have written so many times in my head over the last year. I had planned the direct approach, thinking it would be better for me to say the hardest part first – My Mom has died. But even after writing it now, I still find it hard to believe and certainly not any easier to say. This day has come the long way around, with my Mom fighting far longer than anyone had thought she could or had expected her to, mainly because of the faith she had, and her sheer will.

26 years ago when I was 15, I still remember the hush talk around the house, and the conversations around me, but never to me about my Mom’s first introduction to Cancer. She had a breast removed, and I don’t remember how we where told or what was said, but I do remember that it was my Aunt Edna that told us that Mom had an “operation”. As I write this, a memory of my Mom using the bedroom doorframe as an exercise machine to strengthen her arm, and only needing to do 5 stretches, but she would do 10. Pushing higher and harder than she was instructed, so that she could recover faster, typical of the strength and will power of my Mom.

It would continue, because 15 years later, cancerous polyps were discovered, and another procedure and more recovery. 3 years ago it was lung cancer with a third of one lung removed. She was out of the hospital in 2 or 3 days, up and about and if not for the adverse effect of the chemotherapy, she would have been fine. However, the cancer cells that remained after the chemo had other plans, and spread to her esophagus and started to form a tumor that would be the beginning of the end of my Mom’s battle with the horrible disease. The tumor would eventually lead to spots on her spine and other parts of her bones, all too much for the fighter that was my Mom.


The Call

The call came just after 8:00AM, and was a little bit of a surprise. You see, Saturday afternoon the day before, my Mom seemed like she was doing ok. Managing the pain, able to even move her arm a little, and taking part somewhat in the conversations going on around her in the room. I am told, that it is not uncommon to have a good day, preceding a bad. After we hung up the phone, we got up, quickly showered and made it to Orangeville in record time.

When we arrived at the hospital, my aunt Edna was holding my Mom’s hand and talking to her so gently, at almost a whisper. Mom’s breathing was very laboured and when she exhaled, there was this little gurgle sound that the nurse described as water on her vocal cords. “It sounds worse than it is,” they both said, and then my aunt, asked me to sit and just talk to her and I did sit, but I found myself unable to speak. Nathalie encouraged me to try, and her herself talked a little to Mom, saying that “it is ok, and that we are here how.” but my words failed me, and I could not come up with anything. Nathalie suggested I read something from my blog, and after another 20 minutes of quiet contemplation, I read the words I wrote for my Mom on Mothers day 4 months ago.

There is someone in everyone’s life that provides unconditional, unwavering love. For most, that person waited to hear your voice, and wished to touch your hand and loved you LONG before you even breathed you first breath. Those who have known true love in their life will certainly understand the feeling this kind of love brings, and even long for it’s emotional energy if it is missing in their life, but the love of a Mother is something that will always be the strongest, deepest and most special love of your life.

When we are young, we take this love for granted, and some times even take advantage of it. When we are teens, we devalue the love by not appreciating it and by sometimes saying hurtful things, but when we are older and perhaps have children of our own, we understand what this love is. It is only then that we can truly learn to love in this way for ourselves. Mothers teach us by showing and doing, and some of what they teach us, they don’t even know.

Thank you to my Mom for teaching me strength, commitment, and for giving me my get back up when you fall down ability and doing it all without even knowing you did it. I love you Mom!

There were a million other words all rolling around in my head, before and after reading this to my Mom, but I was unable to form any of them into sounds on Sunday. I plan to write more in the future, but for now here is what I wished I had said to my Mom.

Thank you for making me the person I am today. Thank you for loving my wife unconditionally, and my children without fail and thank you for giving me the power of whit, and the sense to know when to use it. Thank you for allowing me to grow up in a house, in which I NEVER felt, unloved, unwanted or unnecessary. A house that I only figured out later in life was built with very little money. Thank you for giving me all I needed and more than I wanted, and for blurring the line between the two. You have done an amazing job as a Mother, raising three great children and it shows, because each of us, are raising wonderful children of our own, a true testament to you. Thank you for being the best Mom I could have wished for. I love you.

Prayer
Over the last 3 or 4 weeks of my Mom’s life, she was having a terrible time when people would leave her hospital room. She said to me a couple of months earlier, “I know I am dying and I am not scared” so I know she had come to grips with death, but I think her biggest fear was dying alone. I think she wanted to make sure she was able to show friends and family that in her death would come strength in family and friendship and companionship, in an amazing way. In replaying the last hours of her life, with an endless stream of people holding her hands and talking to her, and telling stories of her life and telling her, “Thank you” and “I love you”, over and over, I think it must have brought her some joy. Every cousin, niece and nephew was at the hospital on Sunday, and all but one of my Mom’s sisters and one brother was there too. The only person missing was my sister. Janey did talk to my Mom over the phone earlier that day, and she told her that, “she was on her way, and that she loved her”. It could not have been that easy for her traveling, not knowing if she would make it in time.

It was not clear to me, why my Mom was still fighting for breath and struggling as much as she was the whole day, until I picked up my sister at the airport that night and had to tell her that Mom had passed. With tears in her eyes, she told me that she always says a quick prayer before taking off in an airplane and today, she added the words, “If you can’t keep her until I arrive, please take her now.” You see it was then at 4:35PM, in a quiet room in Orangeville, that my Mom breathed her last breath. Janey told her it was ok to stop fighting and that is just what she did.

In closing
I wrote my Mom’s death notice in the funereal office, on my phone while we were all discussing her final arrangements. Details of flowers, and procedures and paperwork, all in an echo in the little room, all so very surreal, I found occupying my fingers while putting my family’s names in chronological order by date of birth was helpful. The word that kept popping into my head was truly. Truly, because I have read: “died peacefully, surrounded by family” so many times, that it meant nothing to me. Nothing, that is until I was part of the family surrounding a loved one in their last moments of life. I can say that without a doubt, my Mom TRULY died peacefully, surrounded by friends and family.

Thank you to the many people who have sent messages, cards or letters of condolences over the last week. The outpouring of your well wishes is truly a blessing to my family and me, much like the life of my Mother was a blessing to us all.

Thanks for reading and have a great and safe week.
Jim

Hello, Goodbye, a Dinner and a Not Bad Story

Hello, Goodbye, a Dinner and a Not Bad Story, in the week 5 recap from the Carr family.


Hello
Nathalie is always a very friendly person in public. Her attitude can rub off on me sometimes, in smiling at people OR starting a conversation with anyone, but for Nathalie it is like it is second nature. Weather it is in line at Wal-Mart or shopping for groceries, she will always confidently talk to people about anything. On the cruise, this friendly approach was a part of life and strongly encouraged by the staff, and after returning home, I caught myself smiling or saying hello to people for absolutely no reason, more then I do normally, and after doing so I am happy to say it only felt a little odd.

This week while waiting for the bus, a girl said hello to me and asked if she was in the correct line for the Meadowvale bus and seemed to have no problem talking to a complete stranger, and I thought, “Good for you!” Well first I thought, note to self, tell the girls not to talk to strange funny looking old men at the bus stop, but after that I said good for her.

The fact is that I am a good guy, and the girl at the bus stop must have an ability to sense that. And as such, she had no problem or fear in talking to me. No fear for sure because she also told me she is going to a friend’s house in Guelph for the weekend and that she was looking forward to it. Note to self; remind the girls, if you do ever talk to strangers at the bus stop, because you think they are nice, don’t ever tell them where you are going, that is just wrong. I am just saying!

Dinner
We have some odd conversations at dinnertime, and I have talked about some in other blogs, but this week we had dinner and a bit of a night out with our friends L & L and 3 of their 4 kids, and let me tell you, you need some kind of electronic device to follow along with the conversations. It was crazy fun and so very entertaining and to top it all off, the food was great! With that many voices, and tons of energy, the topic of conversation went from algebra to YouTube, and thanks to Google, we solved the age-old question “is a tomato a fruit or vegetable?” These are great people, and it is so nice to have them in our lives.

Not Bad
For the last 7 or 8 years, when I say, “hello and how are you” to a colleague at work, his answer is always a predictable “not bad”. Now to give you a clearer picture, my colleague is from a Caribbean Island and it always sounds more like “noo baad” in a laid back, relaxed, umbrella drink in your hand, sunny, on the beach style. And it is to the point that I expect it that way. Well imagine my surprise when after my typical greeting this week, his response was “I guess it’s ok”. WHAT! That’s not right.

I tell him that I have been secretly tracking his responses over the long time I have known him, and his answer to that question is ALWAYS the same. I told him that I considered him my “World ok Barometer” and that I am a little worried about what is going to happen, now that he has sent the earth rotating in a different direction. He smiled, looked up a little, as if to reach for an answer from the sky and said, ” You know, it really is noo baad!” Phew that was close!

In closing
I have said a bunch of times over the last year and a half of blogging, I don’t do it for notoriety, or recognition of any kind, but it sure is nice when it comes in the form of comments from readers. Thanks to Pat last week and her re-tweet, calling my post the “best blog post yet” and because of her large Twitter following, I was able to pick up some new readers. According to my sites web traffic, I had more visitors last week then I have ever had.

I always start my blog by saying it is a snap shot into life with the Carr’s for any given week and it is, but if you are a regular reader you would have to have noticed that some of my bits are just random thoughts and things that go through my head. You see when I am old and in a home and shouting out random words like “Colour” or “Squirrel”, I figure, at least the doctors can jump online, do some reading and say “Well it all makes sense now!”

Thanks for reading and have a great and safe week,
Jim